How To Walk A Plank
This morning, first thing, I got a paper cut - a deep one at a weird angle.  It left a little flap of skin, one that I could peel open and close, starting and stemming the blood flow as I wished.  I was pissed at the time, but now am so grateful for it.
Once I had put a bandaid over the cut, I inspected the itinerary (which was the paper I had cut myself on) that was slipped under our cabin door overnight.  It was rather light compared to the previous ones on the cruise, only one item - a gathering on the top deck.  I turned the paper over to check if there was anything on the other side, but it was blank.  I absentmindedly tossed it on the dresser and went over to the bed, kneeling down and giving Karen a soft kiss on her forehead.  Her moaning reply made it clear she would not be up for joining me this morning.  "Feel better," I whispered in her ear, and then I left.  I am so very grateful for this little, seemingly meaningless interaction.  You have no idea.
Between the paper cut and the fact that my wife was seasick, I was sure it was going to be a bad day.  The seas had been very active the day before, though they calmed significantly over night.  Checking myself in the mirror, I combed my hair and left for the top deck, where I arrived into this nightmare.
I was sure I hadn't heard the man right; he did have a very thick accent.  A flash of knife blade and a nod toward the railing aided in my comprehension.  "Walk the plank," he had said.
I goggled incredulously.  Do they even do that anymore?  I refused to believe they did, even as they were shoving and threatening me toward the starboard railing.  As we got closer, I saw a length of board sticking out over the edge.  The other passengers were screaming and yelling, but it sounded very far off, as if I were hearing them from a nearby island rather than from the same boat.
A makeshift staircase had been cobbled together to help me up to the plank.  It felt almost like I was floating up them due to all of the pirate hands that were helping me along.  Once on the board, all the hands disappeared, and I knew for the first time in my life the feeling of being truly alone.
The wind had picked up again.  I was worried for a bizarre moment about being blown off the board before I had walked off the end.  The absurdity brought a laugh up from somewhere in the depths of me, but it erupted instead as a wailing sob.  I felt so pathetic, so embarrassed.  I wished I didn't have to do this in front of everyone.
Now that tears were flowing, a procession of images that had been clawing at the back of my mind burst forth: my wife...what would happen to her?  They didn't know she was still in the cabin.  Would she be killed?  Raped?  I scanned the horizon for any sign of rescue.  It was an extremely stressful proposition to look out past the end of the plank, but for my wife I did it.  There was only ocean.
I was shaken from my thoughts as my hands were pulled behind my back and tied.  One of the men asked me if I wanted a cigarette.  I thought long and hard about it.  It was an unbelievably difficult decision for me; the toughest one I can remember in my life.  I don't smoke.  Eventually I said yes, but spit it out into the sea almost immediately.  The pirates laughed.  I had a tiny cruel hope that maybe they would decide that I was OK, that they'd take me down, maybe even welcome me into their ranks.  Would I be OK with that, with stealing and killing? I wondered.
My hands were, as I mentioned, tied behind my back, but they were positioned such that I could feel the paper cut I 'd received this morning.  My bandaid had fallen off, probably due to all the sweat.  I stood there on the plank, unbelieving, rubbing my thumb across the flap of skin.  I was very happy to have something to focus on, to distract me.
1 comment:
I dig. The paper cut makes this.
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